Jordan Peterson Interview

Jordan Peterson interviewed me last year (Seder-Masochism was not yet finished when we spoke) and finally the video is up. We talk about the Old Testament, religion, art, inspiration, and copyright, among other subjects.

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Independence Day!

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I am celebrating independence from my uterus and cervical fibroid by resting indoors while my body knits together my post-surgery innards! I told you my posts would be strange for a while.

Nina’s Big Hysterectomy Adventure

At long last, I am on the other side of “hystery.” I’ve had a rough year, health-wise, culminating in this crisis. But on Wednesday I got my long-sought-after hysterectomy (ovaries stayed in, everything else removed). It was complicated, due to the location of the fibroid in my cervix, and the surgery itself took 4.5 hours, and the doctor tells me I can expect more recovery pain than a “normal” hysterectomy. But I’m recovering steadily and glad the wait is over.

Photos below, including one of the “specimen” the surgeon removed. If you are weak of stomach, do not scroll down.

From the car, headed to SIU St. John's Hospital, Springfield IL.

From the car, headed to SIU St. John’s Hospital, Springfield IL.

Before the surgery. Phone picture is blurry, but my head still wasn't. I just wanted to get on with it already!

Before  surgery. Picture (taken on SpecialManFriend’s tiny phone) is blurry, but my head still wasn’t. I just wanted to get on with it already.

After surgery, which took 4.5 hours. I was under for longer than that, as actual surgery started kind of late. Last thing I remember is being wheeled out of the pre-op room, around 1:45pm. Next memory is being spoon-fed ice chips by a nurse, around 8:30pm.

After surgery, which took 4.5 hours. I was under for longer than that, as actual surgery started kind of late. Last thing I remember is being wheeled out of the pre-op room, around 1:45pm. Next memory is being spoon-fed ice chips by a nurse, around 8:30pm.

THE MONEY SHOT! I photographed it off the surgeon's phone (and added the labels later) since he can't share this photo because it's locked with a HIPA-compliant app. He will try to get me a print of it for my post-op appointment in a couple weeks. As you can see, the fibroid stuffing my cervix is not only bigger than my cervix, but bigger than my whole uterus. There is actually another fibroid in my uterus there, but it's obviously smaller.

THE MONEY SHOT! I photographed it off the surgeon’s phone (and added the labels later) since he can’t share this photo because it’s locked with a HIPA-compliant app. He will try to get me a print of it for my post-op appointment in a couple weeks.
As you can see, the fibroid stuffing my cervix is not only bigger than my cervix, but bigger than my whole uterus. For reference, here are diagrams of normal uteruses (uteri?) and cervixes (cervices?).
There is actually another fibroid in my uterus there, but it’s obviously smaller. 

The next morning, after several hours of drug-induced haze (not exactly "sleep"). I had a catheter and didn't move my legs at all for about 16 hours. When I finally did, I had episodes of shaking and teeth-chattering, and later puking. Probably after-effects of anasthesia. In spite of a few setbacks, I got on my feet a few times and started peeing normally. The effects of the drugs seemed worse than the pain itself.

The next morning, after several hours of drug-induced haze (not exactly “sleep”). I had a catheter and didn’t move my legs at all for about 16 hours. When I finally did, I had episodes of shaking and teeth-chattering, and later puking. Probably after-effects of anesthesia. In spite of a few setbacks, I got on my feet a few times and started peeing normally. The effects of the drugs seemed worse than the pain itself.

I ended up staying 2 nights at the hospital. We'd only planned for one, but I wasn't stable enough to go home the day after surgery. Here's my bed right after I was discharged Friday morning.

I ended up staying 2 nights at the hospital. We’d only planned for one, but I wasn’t stable enough to go home the day after surgery. Here’s my bed right after I was discharged Friday morning.

Home at last! Momz got me this lap tray to protect my belly from the cats, and it was useful instantly. I look much, much better in this photo than I feel! But I can get up and walk, my 5 abdominal incisions are healing, and the brain fog isn't too bad since I stopped the presecription painkillers and am only taking OTC Naproxen.

Home at last! My Momz got me this lap tray to protect my belly from the cats, and it was useful instantly. I look much, much better in this photo than I feel! But I can get up and walk, my 5 abdominal incisions are healing, and the brain fog isn’t too bad since I stopped the prescription painkillers and am only taking OTC Naproxen.

Reviewing these photos, it doesn’t look like such a big deal. But it was at the time! And is now, to be honest, as I spend most of the day sleeping and dreaming very weird dreams, like having to eat my way out of a giant bathtub of lentil soup. Right now is my big morning at my ol’ computer, feeling semi-normal for a few minutes. I’m supposed to be mostly recovered in 2 months, at which time I am allowed to bicycle again. Until then, my posts may be stranger than usual.

UPDATE MONDAY JULY 2: I’m still getting better. My biggest challenge is coughing, which I can’t do without bad abdominal pain. But I have to cough to clear the crud from my throat, which is still recovering from the breathing tube I had in me for many hours. It’s quite a conundrum. Fortunately, laughing is not nearly as painful.

I had my first walk outside today, about a quarter of a mile. Everything looked amazing: flowers, trees, blue skies, clouds. I’m grateful to be alive.

UPDATE JULY  15: at my 2-week post-op appointment, the surgeon said the biopsy revealed the cervical fibroid was 7cm. My cervix also contained a 2cm polyp. And there were multiple fibroids in my uterus. Neither cancer nor endometriosis were detected.

My recovery continues to go well. I can now walk up to 3 miles a day, and don’t need any painkillers, even over-the-counter ones.

Nooze I can Yooze

The list begins (and continues) at sedermasochism.com.

NEWS & REVIEWS

The Hollywood Reporter, June 14, 2018

El Mundo, June 14, 2018 (Spanish)

Variety, June 11 2018 (Interview)

Animation World Magazine, June 2018 (PDF)

Animation Magazine, June 13, 2018 (Interview)

Film-Rezensionen.de, June 8 2018 (German)

Sita Sings the Blues Paintings

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I have finally, FINALLY catalogued the paintings I did for Sita Sings the Blues, and they’re all for sale at http://www.palegraylabs.com/sita-paintings/

Each one is signed, dated, and matted under glass in a 15”x12”x1-3/8” (except “Forest Hut” which is 13″ x 13″) unfinished wood frame.

Angel O’ Death Quilts

Finally available for sale at the Seder-Masochism Merchandise Empire.

Finally available for sale at the Seder-Masochism Merchandise

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The Sita Sings the Blues Merchandise Empire has MOVED!

It now lives at http://www.palegraylabs.com/sita-store/ . 

This is all the leftover merch our previous order fulfillment service sent us when we closed our account. I’ve been inventorying and organizing and folding and removing cardboard box shreds with a lint roller since they dumped everything on our doorstep. Odd sizes! Everything must go!

It now lives at http://www.palegraylabs.com/sita-store/ .  This is all the leftover merch our previous order fulfillment service sent us when we closed our account. I’ve been inventorying and organizing

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Is There A Doctor In The House?

Note: updated below
I NEED HELP. I have an orange-sized fibroid in my cervix, among other problems. The local hospital system is dysfunctional and corrupt – doctors don’t communicate with each other, or with patients (it is, however, one of the most PROFITABLE systems in the country! Isn’t that nice). My so-called “primary care physician” hasn’t seen me in 3 years, though not for lack of trying on my part. I visited the emergency room in great pain last year and since then have gotten bumped from specialist to specialist, and then dropped – it took 4 months to get a referral from the useless rheumatologist for the gynecologist, because someone somewhere

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The Angel of Pain

I needed something to visualize while I’m in pain. The Angel O’ Death is nice, but pain isn’t death; in many ways, it’s life. So this morning, I asked the Angel of Pain to show itself to me. And this is what I got.

I needed something to visualize while I’m in pain. The Angel O’ Death is nice, but pain isn’t death; in many ways, it’s life. So this morning, I

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Who is Producer X?

Astute observers of Seder-Masochism will notice one “Producer X” on the poster:

This is consistent with the film’s opening credits:

and end credits:

Why? Who? WTF?

I made Sita Sings the Blues almost entirely alone. That caused an unforeseen problem when it came time to send the film out into the world: I was usually the only person who could represent it at festivals. Other films have producers who aren’t also the director. Other films also have crews, staff, multiple executives, and money. As SSTB’s only executive, I couldn’t be everywhere at once. Often I couldn’t be anywhere at once, due to having a life that includes occasional crises. Sometimes, if I was lucky, I could send an actor

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Seder-Masochism website and trailer

Behold sedermasochism.com!

And here’s the trailer:

Seder-Masochism Trailer April 2018 from Nina Paley on Vimeo.

Behold sedermasochism.com! And here’s the trailer: Seder-Masochism Trailer April 2018 from Nina Paley on

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Designing a Poster

So many iterations of this poster! This is version #32. A few earlier versions below:

So many iterations of this poster! This is version #32. A few earlier versions

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L’Shana Haba’a

L’Shana Haba’a from Nina Paley on Vimeo.

Next year in Jerusalem!
Music: “L’shana Haba’a” performed by the Breslau Synagogue Chorus, c. 1998

L’Shana Haba’a from Nina Paley on Vimeo. Next year in Jerusalem! Music: “L’shana Haba’a” performed by the Breslau Synagogue Chorus, c.

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Civilization

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Plowman

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